Carter's 1st day of Preschool

Carter started preschool today and it was very hard for him and me.  There were lots of tears.  For those of you who don't know me well and just stumbled upon my blog, I NEVER leave my children.  Blake and I have never left them overnight, except for when we were in the hospital having Kennedy.  We never leave our children with babysitters.  Blake and I personally feel it is very important that at least one of us is there for every bed time, every breakfast, lunch, dinner... just everything!  I know every mom and dad are different and believe me I have tons of friends that are not like me and I am totally okay with that.  I am just a different kind of mom.  So when today came and I knew I would be handing over Carter to basically complete strangers for half the day it did not sit well with me.  We have been preparing Carter for preschool and reading stories about school, visiting the school, and talking about school, but I think honestly we were not only preparing Carter but me too.  I think this will be a hard transition for both of us for a little while.  Carter is seriously my best friend.  We have a very close relationship.  We play games, run errands, eat together, watch shows, make crafts, read, and do everything together all day every day.  Plus, he totally carries on a conversation with me.  I just missed him so much today that it hurt.  My eyes are still burning from crying off and on literally all day today.  I know overall this is good for both of us and we will grow from this and Carter will accomplish so much, but it still hurts my heart to see him growing up, I guess.  I am that mother that really really wants to keep her kids little forever.  Overall, Carter did good on his first day.  There were some tears, but he had no potty accidents, ate his lunch, and played.  That sounds like a good day to me.  I know this will be a great chance for one on one time with Kennedy too.  Except today she took a 2 hour morning nap and I was so lonely and the house was so quiet, I just called Blake at work and cried.  Thank you to everyone who brought over sweet gifts for Carter's 1st day of preschool, for the text messages, FB messages, phone calls, and IG comments.  I really do appreciate all of the support and encouragement.

Little treats for his teachers today

This is seriously how I feel